Becoming Yourself: Overcoming Mind Control and Ritual Abuse

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In contrast to the author's previous book, Healing the Unimaginable: Treating Ritual Abuse and Mind Control, which was for therapists, this book is designed for survivors of these abuses. It takes the survivor systematically through understanding the abuses and how his or her symptoms may be consequences of these abuses, and gives practical advice regarding how a survivor can achieve stability and manage the life issues with which he or she may have difficulty. The book also teaches the survivor how to work with his or her complex personality system and with the traumatic memories, to heal the wounds created by the abuse.A unique feature of this book is that it addresses the reader as if he or she is dissociative, and directs some information and exercises towards the internal leaders of the personality system, teaching them how to build a cooperative and healing inner community within which information is shared, each part's needs are met, and traumatic memories can be worked through successfully.

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CHAPTER ONE Symptoms, memories, and evidence

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CHAPTER ONE

Symptoms, memories, and evidence

his book is written for survivors of mind control and ritual abuse. Perhaps you know beyond a doubt that you are such a survivor, because you have clear memories of childhood abuse that involved attempts to split and control your mind through occult rituals, torture, and deception. If so, you are in a minority.

Over centuries, organised perpetrator groups have observed and studied the way in which extreme childhood traumas, such as accidents, bereavement, war, natural disasters, repeated hospitalisations and surgeries, and (most commonly) child abuse (sexual, physical, and emotional) cause a child’s mind to be split into compartments. Occult groups originally utilised this phenomenon to create alternative identities and what they believed to be “possession” by various spirits. In the twentieth century, probably beginning with the Nazis, other organised groups developed ways to harm children and deliberately structure their victims’ minds in such a way that they would not remember what happened, or that if they began to remember they would disbelieve their own memories. Consequently, the memories of what has happened to a survivor are hidden within his or her inside parts.

 

Chapter One - Symptoms, Memories, and Evidence

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This book is written for survivors of mind control and ritual abuse. Perhaps you know beyond a doubt that you are such a survivor, because you have clear memories of childhood abuse that involved attempts to split and control your mind through occult rituals, torture, and deception. If so, you are in a minority.

Over centuries, organised perpetrator groups have observed and studied the way in which extreme childhood traumas, such as accidents, bereavement, war, natural disasters, repeated hospitalisations and surgeries, and (most commonly) child abuse (sexual, physical, and emotional) cause a child's mind to be split into compartments. Occult groups originally utilised this phenomenon to create alternative identities and what they believed to be “possession” by various spirits. In the twentieth century, probably beginning with the Nazis, other organised groups developed ways to harm children and deliberately structure their victims' minds in such a way that they would not remember what happened, or that if they began to remember they would disbelieve their own memories. Consequently, the memories of what has happened to a survivor are hidden within his or her inside parts.

 

CHAPTER TWO The struggle for healing

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CHAPTER TWO

The struggle for healing

What is mind control? had difficulty finding a definition that, in my view, best described mind control, but

Wikipedia defines it as involving “a broad range of psychological tactics able to subvert an individual’s control of his or her own thinking, behavior, emotions, or decisions . . . The goal is to have those individuals carry out actions which ordinarily would go counter to human nature. This training involves physical, sexual and emotional torture, the use of drugs, and, in some cases, the use of technologies which directly affect brain function”. One implication of this definition is that victims are not responsible for having been mind controlled, even if they have done things that they would not otherwise do.

Popular media representations of mind control involves trained spies or assassins working for the CIA or other military/political groups, or even companies, without their conscious knowledge, because they have other “personalities” who engage in these activities. Think of

 

Chapter Two - The Struggle for Healing

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What is mind control?

I had difficulty finding a definition that, in my view, best described mind control, but Wikipedia defines it as involving “a broad range of psychological tactics able to subvert an individual's control of his or her own thinking, behavior, emotions, or decisions…The goal is to have those individuals carry out actions which ordinarily would go counter to human nature. This training involves physical, sexual and emotional torture, the use of drugs, and, in some cases, the use of technologies which directly affect brain function”. One implication of this definition is that victims are not responsible for having been mind controlled, even if they have done things that they would not otherwise do.

Popular media representations of mind control involves trained spies or assassins working for the CIA or other military/political groups, or even companies, without their conscious knowledge, because they have other “personalities” who engage in these activities. Think of Jason Bourne, or the hero of the film Conspiracy Theory, or Echo in television's Dollhouse, among other American television shows and films. The fictional stories concocted about these mind-controlled special agents suggest that they are recruited in adulthood, even making a conscious choice to participate. Once they have been recruited, the story goes, their previous memories are erased and new “personalities” created with special skills and manufactured memories.

 

CHAPTER THREE Dissociation, multiplicity, and personality systems

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CHAPTER THREE

Dissociation, multiplicity, and personality systems

lmost all survivors of mind control and ritual abuse have a dissociative mind, even if the dissociation is hidden from public view and perhaps from the survivor him- or herself. Dissociative states of being are necessary adaptations to having to endure ongoing life-threatening trauma in childhood. Organised child abuser groups know about this adaptation, and deliberately structure their victims’ dissociative disorders so that their awful secrets will be kept, not only from the authorities and the outside world, but from the main

“front person” inhabiting the victim’s body in everyday life.

If you are such a survivor (and that is who this book is written for), I invite all internal parts of you who are old enough to understand it to read this chapter, so that you will understand yourself—or your selves—better.

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Who am I really?

A child who is being abused on an ongoing basis needs to be able to function despite continuing hidden trauma. He or she has to eat breakfast with parents who might be abusers, to attend school and not appear to be in pain, and to present as relatively “normal” to persons outside the abusive situation. So, the child has at least one part whose job consists of that daily functioning.

 

Chapter Three - Dissociation, Multiplicity, and Personality Systems

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Almost all survivors of mind control and ritual abuse have a dissociative mind, even if the dissociation is hidden from public view and perhaps from the survivor him- or herself. Dissociative states of being are necessary adaptations to having to endure ongoing life-threatening trauma in childhood. Organised child abuser groups know about this adaptation, and deliberately structure their victims' dissociative disorders so that their awful secrets will be kept, not only from the authorities and the outside world, but from the main “front person” inhabiting the victim's body in everyday life.

If you are such a survivor (and that is who this book is written for), I invite all internal parts of you who are old enough to understand it to read this chapter, so that you will understand yourself—or your selves—better.

Who am I really?

A child who is being abused on an ongoing basis needs to be able to function despite continuing hidden trauma. He or she has to eat breakfast with parents who might be abusers, to attend school and not appear to be in pain, and to present as relatively “normal” to persons outside the abusive situation. So, the child has at least one part whose job consists of that daily functioning.

 

CHAPTER FOUR Engineered multiplicity: personality systems created by mind control

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CHAPTER FOUR

Engineered multiplicity: personality systems created by mind control

he personality systems of mind control and ritual abuse survivors are different from those of dissociative individuals whose abuse has been less systematic, such as in severe physical or sexual abuse by a family member. The definitive clues to what happened to you will be found within your personality system, even though people who have experienced organised criminal abuse have often also experienced abuse within the family.

Now, there is abuse that can technically be called “ritual abuse” but does not really involve systematic mind control—for example, by teenage Satanic dabblers. Personality systems created spontaneously in response to abuse do not manifest the degree of internal organisation seen when a person’s insiders have been deliberately split off and trained by an organised group for the purpose of achieving mind control. Without the mind control, healing can proceed in much the same way it does for someone who has undergone abuse that is not systematic.

 

Chapter Four - Engineered Multiplicity: Personality Systems Created by Mind Control

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The personality systems of mind control and ritual abuse survivors are different from those of dissociative individuals whose abuse has been less systematic, such as in severe physical or sexual abuse by a family member. The definitive clues to what happened to you will be found within your personality system, even though people who have experienced organised criminal abuse have often also experienced abuse within the family.

Now, there is abuse that can technically be called “ritual abuse” but does not really involve systematic mind control—for example, by teenage Satanic dabblers. Personality systems created spontaneously in response to abuse do not manifest the degree of internal organisation seen when a person's insiders have been deliberately split off and trained by an organised group for the purpose of achieving mind control. Without the mind control, healing can proceed in much the same way it does for someone who has undergone abuse that is not systematic.

What I shall tell you in this chapter and those that follow is based on my experience of survivors I have known, as clients or colleagues. So, when I make a statement of what I believe to be the case, you can preface it with an “in my experience…” even if I do not say that every time.

 

CHAPTER FIVE Indoctrination

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CHAPTER FIVE

Indoctrination

he most obvious evidence of mind control is the existence of insiders who believe what they were indoctrinated to believe. This is central to understanding mind control, and to no longer being controlled by the abusers. If you have experienced mind control, you, or many of your insiders, believe things that the mind controllers want you to believe.

In this chapter, we will look at the basic beliefs and the deceptions involved. In subsequent chapters we shall look at specific lies which mind-controlling abusers use to maintain control over their trainees. Encourage your higher-ups to read this section even if the adult who handles the outside world does not.

Psychologist and lawyer Steve Frankel read this chapter and responded, “Abusers have two goals: (1) to do whatever they want (to hurt children) and (2) to get away with it.” All the deceptions are for the purpose of these goals.

The most important thing for you to know is that the foundation of the mind control created in children, whether by cults, military or government groups, or organised criminal groups which use children as sexual slaves, is one of carefully designed and meticulously executed deceptions. Mind control is produced through a combination of hypnotic suggestion, drugs, torture, threats, and double binds (choices where there is no good option).

 

Chapter Five - Indoctrination

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The most obvious evidence of mind control is the existence of insiders who believe what they were indoctrinated to believe. This is central to understanding mind control, and to no longer being controlled by the abusers. If you have experienced mind control, you, or many of your insiders, believe things that the mind controllers want you to believe.

In this chapter, we will look at the basic beliefs and the deceptions involved. In subsequent chapters we shall look at specific lies which mind-controlling abusers use to maintain control over their trainees. Encourage your higher-ups to read this section even if the adult who handles the outside world does not.

Psychologist and lawyer Steve Frankel read this chapter and responded, “Abusers have two goals: (1) to do whatever they want (to hurt children) and (2) to get away with it.” All the deceptions are for the purpose of these goals.

The most important thing for you to know is that the foundation of the mind control created in children, whether by cults, military or government groups, or organised criminal groups which use children as sexual slaves, is one of carefully designed and meticulously executed deceptions. Mind control is produced through a combination of hypnotic suggestion, drugs, torture, threats, and double binds (choices where there is no good option).

 

CHAPTER SIX Sally from three perspectives

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CHAPTER SIX

Sally from three perspectives

n order to help you understand the varying perspectives of the different parts inside a survivor of mind control and ritual abuse, I asked Sally to tell the story of three years of her life from three perspectives: that of the adult, Sally, that of the younger insiders (“the

Kids”), and that of the higher-ups inside her. This story is in their words. You will notice that the insiders refer to Sally as “Old Lady” rather than by her name. Perhaps some of your own insiders have had the experience of looking in a mirror and being shocked to see an adult man or woman there.

A note from me: Sally’s higher-ups use the word “programmes”. It is the word the abuser groups used to describe the specific kinds of trainings they gave to her insiders. Some mindcontrolling perpetrator groups see the mind as a kind of computer in which they can place programmes. What they actually do is train inside children to obey particular instructions, using behavioural conditioning and torture and hypnosis. These are the insiders’ “jobs”. Sometimes, there are internal “switches” in the inner world which insiders (internal “programmers”) use to turn programmes on or off. When a programme is turned on, the insiders with that particular training do their jobs. (I have put their descriptions of the programmes and their purposes in endnotes to this chapter, so that explanations will not interrupt the flow of ideas.)

 

Chapter Six - Sally from three Perspectives

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In order to help you understand the varying perspectives of the different parts inside a survivor of mind control and ritual abuse, I asked Sally to tell the story of three years of her life from three perspectives: that of the adult, Sally, that of the younger insiders (“the Kids”), and that of the higher-ups inside her. This story is in their words. You will notice that the insiders refer to Sally as “Old Lady” rather than by her name. Perhaps some of your own insiders have had the experience of looking in a mirror and being shocked to see an adult man or woman there.

A note from me: Sally's higher-ups use the word “programmes”. It is the word the abuser groups used to describe the specific kinds of trainings they gave to her insiders. Some mind-controlling perpetrator groups see the mind as a kind of computer in which they can place programmes. What they actually do is train inside children to obey particular instructions, using behavioural conditioning and torture and hypnosis. These are the insiders' “jobs”. Sometimes, there are internal “switches” in the inner world which insiders (internal “programmers”) use to turn programmes on or off. When a programme is turned on, the insiders with that particular training do their jobs. (I have put their descriptions of the programmes and their purposes in endnotes to this chapter, so that explanations will not interrupt the flow of ideas.)

 

Chapter Seven - Internal Hierarchies

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I begin this chapter with another survivor's story, which illustrates important mistakes made by her first therapist (and, therefore, by her) in her journey towards recovery. (The names of the therapists have been changed.)

LisaBri: “Mistakes my therapist made”

In childhood, severely abused emotionally, physically, and sexually, I refused to die. My perpetrators, including my own mother and father, did not mildly abuse; they subjected me to the horrors of incest and satanic ritual abuse on a continual basis.

I was fearful of the slightest noise at night—beds creaking, house settling, pipes banging or a door opening left me cowering in the corner of my bedroom. I knew they would be back to twist and warp my mind for their sadistic purposes. They always knew where to draw the thin line between death and sanity. I always waited in fear, with my heart pounding through my chest and cold, sweaty, and clammy hands.

At the age of twenty-five, I ran across the continent. I arrived battered and worse for wear, ready to do anything, especially continue to drink, to curb the intense feelings I was experiencing. When I looked for help, I was diagnosed with everything from schizophrenia to premenstrual syndrome. I was told to get a hobby and to not drink in the evenings. One psychiatrist pulled a packet full of white pills from his desk drawer every time I showed any kind of emotion. Every doctor and psychiatrist I saw wanted me to stuff the feelings away. But where could they go? The more I “stuffed”, the worse I became. For five years, I was hospitalised two weeks of every four, until I landed in a locked ward of a psychiatric hospital when I hit bottom. Soon afterwards, I was diagnosed with a dissociative disorder (having inside parts) and I finally sobered up, threw away the drugs and alcohol, and looked for a therapist to talk to.

 

CHAPTER SEVEN Internal hierarchies

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CHAPTER SEVEN

Internal hierarchies

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begin this chapter with another survivor’s story, which illustrates important mistakes made by her first therapist (and, therefore, by her) in her journey towards recovery. (The names of the therapists have been changed.)

LisaBri: “Mistakes my therapist made”

In childhood, severely abused emotionally, physically, and sexually, I refused to die. My perpetrators, including my own mother and father, did not mildly abuse; they subjected me to the horrors of incest and satanic ritual abuse on a continual basis.

I was fearful of the slightest noise at night—beds creaking, house settling, pipes banging or a door opening left me cowering in the corner of my bedroom. I knew they would be back to twist and warp my mind for their sadistic purposes. They always knew where to draw the thin line between death and sanity. I always waited in fear, with my heart pounding through my chest and cold, sweaty, and clammy hands.

At the age of twenty-five, I ran across the continent. I arrived battered and worse for wear, ready to do anything, especially continue to drink, to curb the intense feelings I was experiencing. When I looked for help, I was diagnosed with everything from schizophrenia to premenstrual syndrome. I was told to get a hobby and to not drink in the evenings. One psychiatrist pulled a packet full of white pills from his desk drawer every time I showed any kind of emotion. Every doctor and psychiatrist I saw wanted me to stuff the feelings away. But where could they go? The more I “stuffed”, the worse I became. For five years, I was hospitalised two weeks of every four, until I landed in a locked ward of a psychiatric hospital when I hit bottom.

 

CHAPTER EIGHT Talking with the higher-ups

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CHAPTER EIGHT

Talking with the higher-ups

n Chapter Six, I introduced you to Sally and her insiders, including the kids and the higherups. I have spent a lot of time talking with her higher-ups, and I decided to do some of this discussion by email. She has given me permission to share some of what we have talked about, to help you understand what happens when the higher-ups face the real facts and compare those facts to what they were taught in childhood.

By email, I asked the questions to Sally’s higher-ups. My aim was to encourage them to think for themselves rather than just parrot the abusers’ words. Their abusers had said, “You don’t need to think, for we think for you and for your safety and your power.” In fact, “Don’t think, just do!” was frequently repeated when these parts were being trained. The abusers prevented logical reasoning as much as possible, because it might undermine the mind control programming. I find that asking higher-up insiders questions that get them to think and reason is very helpful for healing.

 

Chapter Eight - Talking with the Higher-ups

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In Chapter Six, I introduced you to Sally and her insiders, including the kids and the higher-ups. I have spent a lot of time talking with her higher-ups, and I decided to do some of this discussion by email. She has given me permission to share some of what we have talked about, to help you understand what happens when the higher-ups face the real facts and compare those facts to what they were taught in childhood.

By email, I asked the questions to Sally's higher-ups. My aim was to encourage them to think for themselves rather than just parrot the abusers' words. Their abusers had said, “You don't need to think, for we think for you and for your safety and your power.” In fact, “Don't think, just do!” was frequently repeated when these parts were being trained. The abusers prevented logical reasoning as much as possible, because it might undermine the mind control programming. I find that asking higher-up insiders questions that get them to think and reason is very helpful for healing.

 

Chapter Nine - Keeping Safe from the Perpetrator Group

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How safe is it for you to work on your recovery? To put together your memories? To disclose them to a therapist or to friends?

Many survivors have ongoing contact with their abuser groups in one way or another. This occurs whether they are in therapy or not, and results in ongoing access and survivors' involvement in continuing activities throughout their lives, especially if they are living in the same vicinity where they grew up. However, this contact might not be consciously known by the survivor's front person.

Here is what is most important for you to know: it is not the group's magical powers, or omnipotence, or sophisticated technology that allows the group this ongoing control. If this is happening to you, it is likely that certain ones of your own insiders are contacting the group members and enabling the group to continue to access you. They report not only any physical relocation, but also whether you are in treatment, with whom, and what you are disclosing there, as well as (sometimes) any work you may be doing on your own towards healing. This is what allows the abuser group to take actions that trigger parts to behave in ways that sabotage your recovery.

 

CHAPTER NINE Keeping safe from the perpetrator group

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CHAPTER NINE

Keeping safe from the perpetrator group

ow safe is it for you to work on your recovery? To put together your memories? To disclose them to a therapist or to friends?

Many survivors have ongoing contact with their abuser groups in one way or another. This occurs whether they are in therapy or not, and results in ongoing access and survivors’ involvement in continuing activities throughout their lives, especially if they are living in the same vicinity where they grew up. However, this contact might not be consciously known by the survivor’s front person.

Here is what is most important for you to know: it is not the group’s magical powers, or omnipotence, or sophisticated technology that allows the group this ongoing control. If this is happening to you, it is likely that certain ones of your own insiders are contacting the group members and enabling the group to continue to access you. They report not only any physical relocation, but also whether you are in treatment, with whom, and what you are disclosing there, as well as (sometimes) any work you may be doing on your own towards healing. This is what allows the abuser group to take actions that trigger parts to behave in ways that sabotage your recovery.

 

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